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Moving to a new address. I'll give the new site in a few days.

"For my yoke is easy and my burden is light" Matthew 11:30

I've been thinking about the future lately and what it will hold for me. Of course, there's no way to be certain what will happen. I have been desiring to become a teacher. However, I must be honest with myself. I do not know I will be allowed to ccontinue. That was dependent on my observing teacher's evaluation of me. I knew of one area she said she could not give me a good review on. It's complicated, but I was unsure how much interaction I was supposed to have with the children and the teacher and I hardly ever spoke to each other. There wasn't a place near her desk to talk to her. I sat by the door in a small chair at a small table. It was only my second observing classroom. There were other issues too, but I won't bother telling them. So, I knew that and I just let it go, because everything in education was SO confusing last year. I won't go into detail. It turns out, apparently she hardly liked me at all and told me that I should find something else to do and needed to find a career where I could work independently. Wow, how she even knew answers to some of the questions, I'll never know. They had nothing to do with my skills and more to do with her guessing how I am. Ugh.

I wonder what I can do know, other than work. I am still looking for a job. Maybe take some lessons I've been wanting to take and maybe move like I have waiting to do. I don't know. I will need to pay money back and the scholarship money will be defunct. I feel discouraged, all that hard work for nothing. Like a new farmer, sowing his seeds, keeping them watered, trying to find the right mix of compost or fertilizer to help them grow only to have nothing grow or to have one heavy rain cause a flood and destroy all he'd worked for. That's how I feel right now. But I have the faith.
"Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

Emmanuel, "God with us" comes to my mind for he is with me, encouraging me on the path of his righteous. The path he has for me now. He's given me a lot of hope and education. I had a wonderful opportunity even though it's ending. I got to go to college and be educated. Some would have loved such an opportunity and I know I have been blessed to have had it. I do not regret it. As difficult and down as I feel, I have it pretty good and realize it. I may wish for things to be different. There is some reason for this and I will find out one day what God has in store for me.
“There is nothing better than the encouragement of a good friend” Katharine Butler-Hathaway

New Take and an update of the summer

Taking this blog a whole new direction-focusing on myself, my relationships, my life. Experiences in college, varying interests of mine, my relationship with God as a more liberal believer. Liberal doesn't equal Democrat/Liberal either. My political stances won't be of concern. Here I will state my position at times, but mostly I will stay neutral. Anonymous comments will be deleted, please give some kind of name for yourself if you desire to comment. I will try my best to update often. I don't take the Bible as the literal anything, but more as a book that reflects how life was back then from the perspective of the authors. Time period is very important in studying the Bible. If it's good, people aren't hurt, and are helped by any action, I believe that's what we, as humans, should do. Enjoy the blog.
UPDATE:
Today I am going to get two books for school that were not in stock when I went to pay and buy books a couple weeks ago. Classes begin in two weeks and I feel like I haven't done even half of what I'd hoped to get done this summer. Things have been so busy. The dryer was acting up-cleaned it out and now it's good. The garage ceiling needs painting-it's half done. Mowing grass, making compost, keeping up with the garden-which is growing lots of cucumbers and tomatoes, less green beans and no peppers, broccoli or swiss chard. I only got one batch of lettuce this year *sigh*.
What else caused a veered course this summer? The fridge/freezer isn't working right, so I've ordered a new one. $750-burning a hole in the wallet.
I went to the movies this summer and prior to that I hadn't been in 5 years-imagine that. With movie tickets almost $9, no soda or popcorn or junk (not that I could have that anyway), it adds up fast. As a college student still looking for a new part-time job, money isn't exactly plentiful. I did not finish that scarf and it may have to wait. I've almost finished my cross stitch. My room is almost clean. I've been cleaning deep this summer-do I need it, is it really important to me, is it important for classes/college, do I really, truly and honestly think I will use it at some point, honestly? No, it's gone then. I have thrown out A LOT of stuff this summer and am now working on organizing what's left so it's easy to find and the room is tidy. While I am doing this, stuff is scattered everywhere in piles and it's driving me crazy. I really hate piles of stuff everywhere, but I am dealing with it for now so that everything in the end will be easy to find and when I move here soon (hoping by next summer), moving and organizing will be MUCH easier. So that's been my summer so far. The weather has been hot here most days. Humid too, VERY humid, ugh. Only one dry spell with about 10 days of no rain back in June. Other than that, it's been a mix of sun, clouds, rain and lots of thunderstorms. When the rain comes-there's often been a storm with it.
My brother had a birthday in July-14 years old and he'll start high school this fall. The old crappy principal my sister and I had has officially retired so my brother won't have to have him. Who they get now will be interesting. That's about all I can think of for now.